3.27 pm *meanless*

this morning i went to driving class.. and then my friend sent me sms ' have you check about that exam.. for the pendidikan course? ' then sent me a few more sms .. just to tell me.. about that.. so i ask my my to check for me.. then he check.. huhu... he said that i must going to that exam tomorrow.. wow.. i feel like want go home at the faster.. let me fly to home.. and i think my parents will be happy for me.. and i reach home around 1 pm.. then i ask my dad.. 'do you know that you must sent me to exam tomorrow? ' he ask me back ' what exam ? the maktab ? ' ohhh nooo !! ... then i say 'no' the pendidikan course.. :o .. he just 'ohhh' .. after that i ask my mom.. ' he just ask ' what exam? the maktab ?' i answer 'no' .. 'then which one ? ' she ask me.. she didi not smile for me.. at least smile.. she just masam .. not smiling.. she ask me a few more question.. no need to write here.. cause i 'love' to keep it .. its an annoying questions ! my dad smile.. but just a little.. like not ikhlas.. ohh noo !! im so sad.. my parents terlalu berharap for the maktab.. untill they forgot that i also apply for the pendidikan course at UPM and UM .. until they dont happy when i got the exam.. T.T .. maybe they want me be a teacher.. but a teacher with lepasan maktab.. for me.. i dont care .. as long as i can be a teacher.. dont know what to say.. i want write more .. but its hard to luahkan in here.. so let me keep it .. so i go into bedroom and cry again.. maybe cause they always think about their beloved son.. until they forgot tha they still have 2 children to take care..


this week i cried 3 times cause of them .. sometimes feel like they did not loves me anymore.. they hard to smile.. they always mad.. on me and my bro.. but my bro is the best actor.. he can being rilex in front of them.. like nothing happend ..but i cant to that.. i know.. my bro sedang tension.. cause my parents always mad on him.. and im just thinking .. how is he if im not here ? what will happend to him ? he will luahkan what he feel to siapa?

just read and dont ask me anything about this.